So over it

I'm sure there's something you can relate to with the title of this moment. 

Go ahead, admit it. I won't judge you.

I can give you a list of "over it" topics.

Like this Depression.

I know it's there. I can literally feel it weighing me down. 

Waking up bubbly and happy and within an hour am I feeling as if I'm a nuisance.

I've wasted away so many of my days, I'm ashamed of it. And strangely afraid of it. 

I'm afraid that it'll soon get the better of me once again. Fighting it everyday is exhausting. 

I'm literally sitting here writing out every thought when it starts up. "Who is going to want to read this?" So that's usually when I ask or say if you're still reading this... Well I caught myself this time. 

And I want to thank you in this moment for reading my thoughts, hearing my emotions. Just letting me talk. I miss writing. Typing. Crafting. I miss my therapy. But I have no energy. 

Help Me. 

Plans and goals

Ah, hello loves.

I am so tired, we are barely over a week into the new year and I have so much planned over the next two months. I know I didn't post anything here in December but I did stick to my goal at posting on my YouTube every other day. -Hey hey don't forget to subscribe.-

So if you are still reading, I love you.

January I plan to stick to a new video every other day. And at least start doing 3 blog posts a month.

February is going to be a special month for me on YouTube and I really hope you check it out. HINT the entire month is dedicated to 1 series of videos, it'll be 14 videos total. 

So this is my two month plan. Hopefully I can get plans going for march and such. Do you have any requests? Are you excited to see the future videos and posts?

My main goal. I would love to hit 1,000 subscribers by my second year on YouTube. Which isn't until new years eve. So I totally see that as a reasonable goal.

I hope you stick around for more posts and videos. Thanks for reading my random babble.

-XO