So over it

I'm sure there's something you can relate to with the title of this moment. 

Go ahead, admit it. I won't judge you.

I can give you a list of "over it" topics.

Like this Depression.

I know it's there. I can literally feel it weighing me down. 

Waking up bubbly and happy and within an hour am I feeling as if I'm a nuisance.

I've wasted away so many of my days, I'm ashamed of it. And strangely afraid of it. 

I'm afraid that it'll soon get the better of me once again. Fighting it everyday is exhausting. 

I'm literally sitting here writing out every thought when it starts up. "Who is going to want to read this?" So that's usually when I ask or say if you're still reading this... Well I caught myself this time. 

And I want to thank you in this moment for reading my thoughts, hearing my emotions. Just letting me talk. I miss writing. Typing. Crafting. I miss my therapy. But I have no energy. 

Help Me. 

26 and LOST

I'm 26 and don't know what I'm doing

Surprise, Surprise. I'm having an internal battle that's now leaking into my life. Which takes me back to those days about learning what bottled up emotions were like, by comparing them to the iceberg in Titanic.

I'm so tired of bottling everything up again. I don't know what has changed, AGAIN. 

But I should be used to my life flipping like a fish out of water.

Everything's been spilling out lately and I'm trying not to fall down this hill of emotions. 

I'm happy one moment and upset seconds later with just one thought.

I'm losing myself.